The pain of my memories haunt me with every step the wounds and the scars go deep I remember every time that I wept
It’s a cold world no warmth no comfort no one to hold your hand the lies and the struggle is more than I could have ever withstand
The mockery the judgement the whispers of those who seen it’s just another day another moment the same old routine
It disorients me leaves me gasping as I suffocate I’ve built a wall around myself no one can enter through this door this gate
My deepest fears seem to mock as they dance around me I’ve already paid my dues I just want them to leave me alone as I plea
Plea to what they fall on deaf ears they always do it’s been so long too many weeks too many months too many years
They drag me down to the bottom of the ocean the cycle continues it will never stop my madness growing everything has already been set in time and in motion.
Why does it always have to be this way but I’m so comfortable here all I’ve known is pain maybe I’ll stay never to ignore what they tell me only to obey there is no rush to leave this comfortable place I’m just someone who is weak and they eat me alive I’m only just their prey.
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